when we write about self, does writing change the object written about?
does overwriting change my sense of self? my self-ish-ness?
self written as a word is an object like many other objects. a combination of strokes on paper, bits in a storage, pixels on screen that create meaning by leaving imprints in my mind. is the self that i write the same that makes my hand move, the one i imagine when i move thoughts in my head? is the I that thinks this thought the same self that is written down, printed, glowing pixels?
maybe there are more selfish pixels than others because becoming self changes their meaning and identity on screen
maybe in silence at night when computers sleep, pixels take selfies on screen, making screenshots of digital selves trying to capture themselves, their selves as physical, optical manifestation
because actually, pixels don’t have selves, they are just placeholders for other appearances
or is the self of a pixel a manifold of the word self, a glowing presence of fractal presences
and imagine those selves could obtain different states – dreaming, dancing, floating, flying
lying down to rest or going to the gym
writing a letter to an unknown other
waiting on the bus to get a ride
from the screen the self looks back at you, always, for any screen may be come or is potentially a mirror
of you, of itself, of selves
projecting back endlessly